Sometimes, I just want to try to get out of my head.
It's not easy.
In case you haven't noticed from this blog, I'm a thinker. A planner. A worrier.
I exhaust myself (and I really exhaust my husband).
And Lydia is constantly on my mind.
Even if I seem to be having a normal conversation, she's right there.
(Which is, by the way, why you should never hesitate to bring up my daughter in conversation with me. Some people say they are worried about making the grieving person feel worse. Believe me, there is no worse. And believe me, there is never a moment they are not on our minds. And believe me, we appreciate you acknowledging our sons and daughters and our pain).
So at night, Justin and I usually snuggle up for a bit of tv.
We have to be careful right now.
The Mindy Project? She's an obgyn, this is dangerous territory.
Parenthood? One of my favs but a character is pregnant.
How I Met Your Mother? Should be safe, right?
Spoiler alert: sorry if you haven't watched the series finale yet but it was a while ago, so I am hoping I am safe here... If not, skip this part.
Characters get pregnant.
Characters who don't even WANT their babies.
Early on, they announce the pregnancy.
And 8 or 9 months later, they're all happy and smiley with a baby in their arms.
They're all in love with their new baby.
If only it were that easy. I want to yell at the tv, "THAT IS NOT THE WAY IT WORKS!"
Where are the miscarriages? Where are the stillbirths? Where are the dead babies??
And why can't I get a fucking break? Why can't I even be distracted for a short while without all of these happy pregnancy and births being thrown in my face?
If you've watched any good tv series, which do not picture any pregnant women or babies, I'd be happy to have suggestions.