Wednesday, January 7, 2015

What I didn't know about grief

All senses are heightened.
Voices are loud.  They hurt my head.
Crowds are a big blur. I feel like I am drowning in them.
Lights - especially flashing ones- make me feel like I'm tripping.  Or sometimes, like I can't breathe.

I wonder if this is how people with autism feel.

I've been a bit protected by these heightened senses in the last two months as I've mostly hunkered down in my Fortress of Solitude.  Now, as I slowly start to integrate myself back into society (I am turning down lunch invitations but I have to go to work everyday), I find this part of grief makes it hard to function normally.

I can tell my sister she's talking too loud.  I can't exactly tell my coworker.

1 comment:

  1. Sure you can, if it's someone you see frequently. No one wants to make your day, your life, any harder than it has to be.


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